One Time

The usual suspects included me,
Now I sit idly by, letting their lives pass me
Its about business forget a friendship
It's sad you gotta reinforce it
Generally speaking you gotta stomp out all the
horse-shit
Divorce it, let it go

Mindless banter,
Free thought separated by foolishness
Less wealth more health
Amortization of what you brought me

Lessons of a foolish prophecy
False prophet in my eyes that were once fooled
Prayed together but it only benefitted you
Stayed together until it no longer behooved you
soothed you,

Attention whore
slammed the door at the time it was the worst
went first, let you prove your worth, less than the least...

A Funny Thing

Happened on the way to bed last night, a good friend of mine and I discussed our dreams, goals, desires (whatever word you wanna use.) She discovered that she was blessed to actually be on her way to where she wanted to be. Naturally being the good friend that I am, I scolded her on bragging and proceeded to tear down every accomplishment she achieved, hence why we are still good friends. (J/K) She raised an important question though, and it set me to thinking, what am I doing to get to where I desire to be?

Is it impossible to be completely lost and to hold on to the idea of doing what you love years later? Or is it impossible to hold the fire and passion that developed from my youth? I am curious...

I'm all about my loves; music, writing, dancing (within the privacy of my own home!) and learning all things cultural. I know I am not beyond my means of living and learning more about these things but the question is, do I truly have the drive and hunger for it as before?

Question number two is: why do I have to be awake at 2:30 am thinking about this? I find this not so much disturbing as I find it annoying.